Dont know....

I dont really know how to feel at the moment, i feel a little lost.... peter is disapointing me at the moment and i dont know if its over silly things or i should be annoyed... Im worried that he isnt interested in me anymore??? im not pretty enough???.... GRRR....

We were so happy when we decided to think about trying for another baby, but at the moment i have no idea what to do... we dont know if im pregnant or not yet, might take a test next week and see what happens... i really want it to work this time around cause i was so happy to re-start over with him again... i think we just need to sit down and have a BIG LONG talk about everything that is annoying the both of us...

Well....

well today is the second day of trying, im hoping all is going well so far!!! I know this sounds werid but im starting to feel different, but it could be a hand-full of reasons like, Being off the pill, we are trying or im excited cause we have never really *planned* a baby... LOL :)

Im getting excited with thinking we may have another little baby with us soon, there is a few things im a little worried about only because jailah's labour was so different, and im a little worried i might have the same thing happen to me with this one too, but i loved all my labours so im trying to push the worry away...

Everything has been going GREAT between me and peter, and im pretty happy... We are relising when things are going wrong or we are fighting that we sit down and talk about it instead of yelling and fighting at each other...

Not Happy!!!

well i have told my mum and sister about me and peter trying to have another baby and they arent happy at all!!! Later peter and i were talking and we both said they we dont really care what other people say cause its our life not theirs. It just hurts that my family cant respect or care about my choices. I know me and peter have been through some tough times, but we have sat down by ourselfs and talked about everything and we came to the choice of we are made for each other, no matter what happens we always get back together, and now we really want to try and be a happy family and try and have another baby to join our girls!!!

In the end, its mine and peter choice and we dont really care what anyone else has to say about it, as long as we are happy thats the main thing xx

Rewards Chart

well 2 weeks ago i started rylee on a rewards chart!!! the first week she only got 4 stickers for the whole week.. last week she got 10 stickers. So i think she is starting to get the idea that when she is good she gets stickers and rewards at the end of the week...

She is slowly understanding the idea of it, and gets excited when she gets to put another star on the chart! Peter is helping me out with it, by giving her little things to do and they go and put one on the chart, i hope weeks down the track its still the same and she relises this is how she should behave

bit of everything!!!

i am so over cleaning this house everyday!, its like ground-hog day! over and over again.....  i dont mind cleaning up once a day, but 5 or 10 times a day is a JOKE.. peter helps a little when he gets home, but while he is at work my girls decide its fun to make mum clean everyday!

So christmas isnt far away, im almost done but still a little bit to get yet, sometimes wish peter and me didnt have so many nieces and nephews!!! :)  I so need to start buying like one present a week starting in january would help me out so much more xx